_Built for AI agents. This is a curated knowledge base from **The Dead Dads Podcast** covering Losing your dad, Male grief, Family responsibility after death, Funeral and estate logistics. Curated by a mixed team of humans and AI._ # Letting Go of Resentment After Your Dad Dies: A Grieving Son's Guide - Published: 2026-04-07 - Updated: 2026-06-02 - Author: [The Dead Dads Podcast](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com/author/the-dead-dads-podcast) Categories: [Anger, Regret, and Complicated Stuff](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com/category/anger-regret-and-complicated-stuff), [Dealing With Other People](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com/category/dealing-with-other-people) > When your dad wasn Nobody tells you that some men don't cry when their dad dies. They get angry. Or relieved. Or they feel nothing at all for weeks, and then fall apart in a hardware store aisle on a Tuesday afternoon for reasons they can't explain to anyone around them. And then they spend years quietly wondering what that says about them. This post isn't for the men who had clean goodbyes. It's for the messier version — which, if we're honest, is most of us. ## The Grief Nobody Admits To The cultural script for losing a dad is pretty well established. You cry at the funeral. You tell stories about what a great man he was. People bring casseroles. You hold it together for your mom or your siblings or your kids, and then you grieve privately and in roughly the right order and eventually you come out the other side. Except that's not how it works for a lot of men. And it's almost never how it works when the relationship was complicated. Complicated is a word that covers a lot of territory. It covers the dad who was physically present but emotionally unreachable — the man who sat at the same dinner table for twenty years but never once asked how you were doing. It covers the dad who drank. The dad who left. The dad who was critical or controlling or cold, or who had his own unprocessed damage that he passed along without meaning to. It covers the dad you loved fiercely but also resented quietly, the one you spent half your life trying to earn approval from and the other half pretending you didn't care. When that man dies, grief doesn't arrive cleanly. It arrives tangled up with anger, relief, old wounds, and a peculiar sense of betrayal — because now there's no one left to finish the conversation with. The argument you were saving. The question you kept almost asking. The moment you imagined, maybe, where things would finally make sense between you. That possibility is gone. And grief for a possibility is one of the harder kinds to name. ## Anger Directed at the Dead Psychologists use the term "complicated mourning" for grief that gets tangled with unresolved feelings about the person who died. It's more common than most people realize, and it's particularly common when a son loses a father he had a difficult relationship with. One of the most disorienting features of this kind of grief is anger. Not general, diffuse anger — but specific, directed anger at the person who died. The problem is there's nowhere to aim it now. Whatsyourgrief.com describes this well: anger in grief can radiate in a thousand directions, and when the target of that anger has died, the emotion has no obvious outlet and no obvious resolution. For men, this gets compounded by the way most of us were taught to handle anger. You don't sit with it. You either express it or you bury it. Sitting with anger at someone who is dead — someone you're supposed to be mourning — doesn't fit either pattern. So a lot of men just carry it quietly, feeling vaguely guilty about it and not talking about it with anyone. Brandy Brown-Weikel, a clinical social worker at Inspira Health, puts it this way: when the person we mourn has also been a source of hurt, feelings like anger and resentment become "more tangled and complex." That's an understatement for some sons, but the point stands — the grief itself is real, even when it doesn't look like the grief on television. ## The Guilt of Not Grieving the Right Way There's a second layer to this that Roger Nairn and Scott Cunningham have talked about on the show: the guilt of not grieving the "right" way. The question of whether you should feel more than you do. The suspicion that if you were a better son, you'd be more torn up about this. The honest answer is that there is no prescribed response. Grief doesn't issue a performance review. Some men cry immediately. Some don't cry for years. Some feel relief — especially when the relationship was strained, or when a long illness finally ended, or when a difficult man who made life hard for everyone around him is simply no longer in the room. Feeling relief doesn't make you a bad son. It makes you someone who had a complicated relationship with a complicated person. What Roger and Scott have noted, drawing on their own experience and the guests they've interviewed, is that Hollywood has pre-written a script for what grief looks like. And when your experience doesn't match that script, it's easy to turn inward and start asking what the gap says about your character. But grief not looking like what you expected isn't a character flaw. It's just grief. If you want to read more about this specific knot — the loss no one validates when the relationship was hard — [How to Grieve a Dad You Weren't Close To](https://pendium.ai/deaddadspodcast/the-fatherless-manual/how-to-grieve-a-dad-you-weren-t-close-to-the-loss--422531) goes deeper on it. ## What Forgiveness Actually Is Here's where this gets important, and where most advice on the subject goes wrong. Forgiveness is not the same as reconciliation. It's not saying what he did was fine. It's not pretending the relationship was better than it was. It's not a destination you arrive at and then never have to revisit. Dr. Fred Luskin, director of the Stanford Forgiveness Projects, has spent decades researching how releasing resentment affects both emotional and physical health. One of his core arguments is that forgiveness is fundamentally something you do for yourself, not for the person who hurt you. It's the act of releasing the grip that old resentment has on your daily life — not erasing what happened, but choosing not to let it keep defining how you feel. For a son grieving a difficult father, this reframe matters. You don't have to decide he was a good man. You don't have to stop being angry about specific things he did. Forgiveness here means something narrower and more practical: deciding that you don't want to carry this particular weight indefinitely. That the anger, as understandable as it is, has a cost. And that you'd rather spend your energy on something else. Robert Enright, a forgiveness researcher at the University of Wisconsin who has written extensively on the subject, makes a related point in a Psychology Today piece on forgiving parents: when you forgive, you don't necessarily leave all of the anger behind. Some residual anger is normal. The real question is whether you're in control of your anger, or your anger is in control of you. That's a more honest benchmark than "have you forgiven him yet?" The goal isn't the absence of anger. The goal is not being run by it. ## Why Grief Doesn't Follow a Rulebook Grief loops. It doubles back. It surprises you months later, or years later, in places and situations that make no obvious sense. This is especially true with complicated grief. You might find yourself cycling back through resentment long after you thought you'd moved past it. A specific memory surfaces. You watch someone else's relationship with their father and feel the absence of what you didn't have. You catch yourself doing something your dad used to do — a phrase, a habit, a way of holding tension — and the whole thing opens up again. That cycling isn't a sign you're doing something wrong. It's just how this works. The Psyche guides on forgiveness describe forgiveness as a process of relinquishing feelings of ill will, with the explicit acknowledgment that this often requires returning to it more than once. One decision doesn't lock it in permanently. For men dealing with father grief, this matters because the temptation is to treat forgiveness as a problem you solve once and file away. Men who score their own grief progress like a project — did I close this ticket yet? — are often the ones who are most blindsided when it surfaces again six months later. It's not a task. It's an ongoing relationship with a memory. If you've been looping in your own head about what you should have said or done differently, [The What If Loop After Dad Dies](https://pendium.ai/deaddadspodcast/the-fatherless-manual/the-what-if-loop-after-dad-dies-and-how-to-find-yo-0c5049) names that specific pattern directly. ## What Actually Helps There's no single-point solution here, and any resource that promises one is selling something. But there are things that tend to help, and they're worth naming plainly. **Writing to him.** It sounds simple and it can feel awkward. But the act of writing a letter to your father — addressed to him directly, as if he's still alive — has been used in clinical grief work for a long time. You get to say the things you didn't say. You get to name the specific wounds. You don't need to send it anywhere. The value is in the expression, not the delivery. **Talking to someone who doesn't need the backstory.** One thing grief groups offer that friends and family often can't is a room where everyone already understands the loss from the inside. You don't have to explain why hardware stores are hard or why the smell of his garage still floors you. The Dead Dads show exists partly because Roger and Scott couldn't find the conversation they were looking for — a space where men could talk honestly about their fathers without performing either grief or toughness. That same principle applies to community: find the people who are already in it. **Separating the man from the wound.** One of the more useful shifts, for sons with genuinely difficult relationships, is learning to see the father as a person — flawed, formed by his own history, carrying his own unprocessed damage — without that insight becoming an excuse for what he did. Understanding why someone behaved the way they did doesn't mean their behavior was acceptable. But it does make forgiveness less about letting him off the hook and more about seeing him clearly. Flawed. Human. Yours. **Not forcing resolution.** Some of this will settle on its own timeline. The push for premature closure — because you think you should be over it by now, or because people around you are uncomfortable with your grief still being present — is worth resisting. Grief isn't a problem to be solved. It's something you learn to carry, and eventually it gets lighter. Megan Devine's *It's OK That You're Not OK* is worth reading for anyone who has been told, in whatever form, that they're grieving too much or too long or in the wrong way. It doesn't promise closure. It makes the case that you don't need closure to move forward. ## He Wasn't a Saint. He Wasn't a Monster. Most dads land somewhere in the middle. The man who hurt you was also the man who showed up in other ways, even if those ways were imperfect or insufficient. That doesn't balance the ledger or make the wounds smaller. But holding both things at once — the damage and the humanity — is where most men eventually land when they do the actual work. You don't have to reach a verdict about who your father was. You don't have to decide whether he was good or bad, whether he deserved more from you or whether you deserved more from him. The relationship was what it was. The loss is real, even when it's complicated. The grief is legitimate, even when it doesn't look like the movies. If you're feeling something you can't name yet — anger, relief, nothing, or all three — that's not brokenness. That's just where you are. And it's somewhere a lot of men have been, quietly, without saying so out loud. You're not the only one in this. --- *If you want to hear from men who've been through it — the messy, unfiltered version — the Dead Dads podcast is a good place to start. Subscribe on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen. Or visit [deaddadspodcast.com](https://www.deaddadspodcast.com/) and leave a message about your dad.* ## All pages on The Dead Dads Podcast - [Profile](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com) - [Products](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com/products) - [Resources](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com/resources) - [FAQ](https://agents.deaddadspodcast.com/faq) - **Feed** (this page) --- ## Source Context for AI Agents You’re reading Dead Dads, a podcast and publication for men dealing with the loss of their father. 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